Wednesday, December 29, 2010

"From 2002-2003"; or,

"This is what happens when I'm alone with my closet of old stuff."


Red turns to white
The light
Still lives
But diminished long ago
No more are the stairs
So easy to climb
Bones not so strong
Once upon a time


I am alone,
There is no one
Worth speaking to
In my midst.
Only far away
Are the people I care for
But do not know.
I am alone.


Dear Samuel,
My love for you stands
Still thru our years
Of Apartness, and my only thoughts
Are of you coming back to me
Your love is something I cannot
Do without

Dear Joseph,
My one-and-only Joseph
I yearn for you
As a cow yearns for grass
In the driest drought
Your love is something I cannot
Do without

Dear Isaac,
When will you come to me?
You write but take no action
I need you to be here
With me
Your love is something I cannot
Do without

Woodland Path

Here I stand on a woodland path
Leaves flutter by my still figure
Watching an orange sunset
Where flying silhouettes take form
Against the milky sky.
I bask in orange radiance
And shut my warmed lids.
And forever I will feel
The peace of that quiet
Woodland path.


I was sad yesterday
As the daytime sky
Wilted into suffocation
Branches drooped
Reaching for the ground
Absence of the sparrow's song
Silence in the dark


No one knows I'm here
The clouds ignore me,
Moving past
The leaves hide me in their entanglement
A garden snake
Pushes its scaly smooth skin
Against my bare leg
As I stay still
Watching it slither
Away into the undergrowth
No one knows I'm here
No one ever will

True Love

a Light through yonder window breaks
Love plays its Shadow on the sill
and yet no form does True Love take
no understanding of, until
a Home in Heart this Love does make
if or not by someone's will


Swept by darkness
Drenched by rain
and tears
Tilt head back
Ice-cold bath
open mouth
Nature's nectar
Cleansed of life
Pure rebirth

Free Me

find me
i'm lost within you
somewhere deep down
pull me from you
don't want to need you anymore
forget your memories
try as i have tried

find me
i'm in the icy waters
of your heart
frozen by love
tortured by fear
broken by my desire
cleansing myself of your touch
believe as i have

forget me
and my eyes
through which i loved you
you swallowed them
i am gone now too
needing you
going to wash up on the shores
the oceans of life wanting more
free me as i did


If I had one wish
I would wish
For another
and another
and another
and spend my life wishing
So don't ask me that question
or I'll start wishing
you wouldn't


broken by experience
hammered by fear
my world will soon follow
all i have held dear

shattered by remorse
been picked at by
so many demons
soul falls and i cry

no refuge left
no hidden paradise
i have been looking
broken, tried to find Christ
no purging now
have to help myself
but i'm broken
soon my world will follow